Fixing relationships is not my thing
So a couple Fridays ago I called an ex of mine, just to ask how he was doing and vice versa. I felt it was time to live up to the deal (or however one may call it) that we decided on a couple weeks after he had broken up with me: that we be friends. Next day I call him again, but he doesn’t answer. I leave a message. Keep in mind: I have a phobia of phones, and leaving a message is one of the scariest things for me to do.
By Tuesday night I see him online on MSN, so I say ‘hello’. He doesn’t respond, and then half an hour later he appears offline. That did not seem right, so I checked Facebook. Oh, he took me off his friends list (he no longer appeared on my list). I ask a friend of mine if he is online on MSN. He is. He blocked me.
So, he severed contact with me.
Lesson learned:
I shall never try to do that sort of thing ever again, with anyone.
All it does is stress me out, and then in the end it is a loss anyway. I should get used to losing things, but really… it would be nice for a change if some good things were to happen.
Guess what? More bad luck. :|
Who would have thought that I could still be plagued with bad luck? Well here I am, beginning my rant about the recent happenings that leaves me wondering: “When will this end?”
Great faces, great places?
So there I was, on another long-haul trucking trip with my dad. I got to see Washington state for the first time, and that night we were crossing through South Dakota. It was nighttime, and I was watching a thunderstorm that was just the right distance away—we were not being rained on, but I was still able to watch it. Then we went under an overpass, and BANG. I thought we were struck by lightning at first. But then I realized there was no light. Meanwhile my dad slammed on his brakes and was pulling over onto the shoulder. I then looked at the windshield. Strange muck covered the glass. And then I smelled it, and I couldn’t stop gagging.
You know the rotten egg smell we all know well? This was a thousand times worse. And it was indeed rotten eggs. Keep in mind I have a super gag reflex, inherited from my mom. At least three dozen eggs, taken from a farm, and tossed down by some teenage delinquents. We found out that much after pulling into the nearby rest area and speaking to the police officer, whom was speaking to two other drivers (a car and an SUV). The SUV’s windshield was cracked. So apparently the troublemakers have been doing this for some time, and have never been caught. During the talking we heard honking, and I saw a white van pass by on the highway. That must have been them, but the police officer took no notice. Good job, mister. Good job.
We got the truck washed, but the smell lingered in the truck’s A/C for about a week after that. Not pleasant, at all.
Athena of Marineland Niagara Falls
I found out that this past spring, Athena was never seen. So now Marineland has two orcas—Kiska and Ikaika. But Ikaika is on loan from SeaWorld, so he will be gone sometime in the future. Unless he was bought, which has never been mentioned. I wonder how Kiska feels now, all her children deceased, her only friend, Nootka 5, died last January. Probably suicide, as Nootka was perfectly healthy when I last saw her. Athena, meanwhile… I saw her ribs the last time I saw her. She seemed quite ill, but I did not get any impression that the workers were aware of it. Or maybe they were just pretending it was all fine and dandy. Either way, I am sad.
Knees know no limits
Last night I found out that bad knees run in the family. Well, at least now I know why both my knees are causing me endless pain. Nevertheless, I am only seventeen, and I would very much like to be able to walk like any other teenager. Most of the time it is my right knee, and my doctor pretty much put it down to being Runner’s knee. He suggested cycling. Oh yes, I am totally about to go out on my bike in the dead of winter. My mom does not want to bother buying a cycling machine, or whatever it is called. Ironically, we got rid of our original one a few months before this diagnosis.
More recently, yesterday to be exact, my left knee started to hurt. I did nothing to hurt it. I was just walking to class. So now it feels like someone has wedged something sharp between the two leg bones and is partially stabbing into my kneecap area. Left side, particularly underneath, feels really tender. I can no longer sit cross-legged, because that hurts way too much. Sometimes I dare not walk, for the pain can get to be too painful when weight is put on the leg.
Tiny presents under the carpet
Oh yes. I just bought MySims for the Wii today, as my cousins got me addicted to it when I visited them in August. So I hooked up the Wii to my sister’s big TV downstairs, and I started to play. In the corner of my eye I saw something dark scuttle to the left. I looked, and it was… a beetle. I grabbed the nearby Guitar Hero game case and squished it into oblivion. It kept moving! So I eventually flattened his head. Five minutes later another one scuttled out from behind the PS2, and I squished that one with the ten-pound dumbbell.
Then not two minutes later a larger one crawled out of the carpet, in a supposed opening at the fireplace, on top of which the TV sat. I took the dumbbell and tried to dispatch it. This one was more clever, and hid under a brick. It eventually began to climb the bricks, and I tried to get it there. No luck. It fell, and crawled back under the carpet. Well by that time I was very disturbed by the development, and saved my game and left the basement quickly. I told my mom, and… I did not get much of a reply. Mostly silence.
What does the future hold?
Mystery Illness
For the past few weeks I’ve been sick with some sort of viral infection (according to the doctor at the hospital, at least). I, honestly, have no idea. It comes and it goes randomly. Sometimes I go an entire day without any symptoms. And sometimes I can go for days being practically bedridden due to being in pain from headaches and strange ear pains. I’ve missed a fair bit of school, but I went yesterday. I think that was a mistake. By the time I got home, I was so exhausted, yet I continued with my normal activities and fell asleep at my normal time (1am). Today I felt worse, so I did not go to school. In response to this my mom says I am not allowed to go to my best friend’s birthday party tomorrow. Well no matter what, it’s lose/lose for me. Lose 1) If I went to school I would have been in pain, and then in pain at my friend’s place. Lose 2) I stay home and miss out on long-awaited fun, but get to rest in attempt to ease the pain.
So no matter what, I lose.
Three New Calves
This past week or so the Center for Whale Research has identified three new calves in the Southern Resident orca community, identified as J-44, L-112, and J-45. This is pretty good news, as the community has lost six to eight orcas this past year, two of them being reproductive-age females who wouldn’t die in normal circumstances. Why did they die? Lack of food. Why is this a non-normal circumstance? Because we’re taking away their main diet—chinook salmon. We have taken away much of the habitat which the chinook use for reproduction. Another reason, is that the salmon are loaded with PCBs, a now-mostly-banned flame retardant which is still being dumped in some countries. It induces a weakened immune system, chance of infertility, among other unhealthy things. As a result, the Southern Resident orcas have the highest levels of PCBs in their bodies. Nearly two centuries ago these orcas numbered around two hundred. Today they number in the eighties, with an entire generation missing due to the mass capture of youngsters for captivity (profits) forty years ago.
J-45’s mother is Samish (J-14). The identity of L-112’s mother is still unknown.
The mother of J-44 is Princess Angeline (J-17). She already has two daughters (Polaris (J-28) and Tahlequah (J-35)), and was also my first adopted orca.
Bad things that happened to me this year: A compilation
Here I’m just venting. Vent vent vent.
Both of My Siblings Have Been Laid Off
That’s right. In June my sister was laid off, because the place she was working at was closing in August. As she hadn’t even been there for a year, she was among the first to go. This past month my brother was told that he was not driving enough miles, so he was laid off (he’s a long-distance truck driver, same as my dad). He wasn’t even warned about not having enough miles. I’m especially pissed, because our dad worked for that same company until a few years ago when he ‘provoked’ a higher-up into knocking him unconscious. Clearly that company is going to the dogs… it’s been taken over by the founder’s son. Now my brother is going to be working for the company that my dad is now working for.
Ps: If I ever have the chance to meet this owner of the stupid trucking company in question… I’ll be sure to give him a piece of my mind. 
Nootka 5 Dies at Marineland
On January 8 of 2008, Nootka passed away at Marineland Niagara Falls. She had a number of calves over the years, but they have all since died.
The Passing of Pleco the Pleco
Since 2001 I owned an algae eater, whom I named Pleco. He was a plecostomus, and never reached a foot in length (he was stunted to being about seven inches long, probably genetic or something). It was in late February, when I noticed he seemed to be acting different. Knowing fish, I knew he was ill, and so I isolated him into a smaller container filled with his favourite log and tons of java moss to hide in. Right when I placed him in there, I could tell he appreciated it. Two mornings later, he died. I was going to bury him in the backyard this summer, but I had no time. Maybe next summer.
Cletus the Betta
I just remember that he died in the middle of March, on the morning when I was to leave for a jazz festival that was two hours away. I rescued him from a local pet store the previous April—his water was only two inches deep, and was so filthy you could barely tell he was there. He had no colour whatsoever. When I first got him, I just thought he was going to die, and I was ready for it. But then he lived for a week… two weeks… two months… and then he started to develop a beautiful blue colour on his fins. His fins grew a bit, and he seemed to be a happy little betta. He loved chasing me whenever I walked past the tank (I kept him in the 33gal community tank). At least he died happy…
Charmin, My Beloved
In 1994, my brother had finally convinced my mom to go out and get a cat. We eventually picked a cat, named Charmin. She was a manx with a long tail… and the same age as me—two years. She had quite a few stories enacted for us to tell for years to come: she jumped off our house’s balcony which is on the second floor, had five male kittens when we were told she was spayed (we made sure after she had given birth, though), and she always made her presence known whenever she wanted something. Whenever I was sad, she would always find me, lay on my stomach, and purr. This always made me feel better.
On March 5, my sister and I were sitting in the living room (we were the only ones in the house as our parents were on a road trip), when Charmin came into the room and stared at us both. She then headed toward my sister, and we saw that she was pretty wobbly on her feet. So I was dropped off at my brother’s house with Charmin so then he could keep an eye on her (because my sister had other things to do), and I slept on the couch with her that night.
The following morning my brother brought me to school, and I spent the entire day worrying about Charmin. Then during the afternoon in science class I called my brother, and he said that she was taken to the vet that morning, and that we could go visit her when I got out of school. He picked me up after school, and he, his girlfriend, and I all went to the vet. We were set in a small room with Charmin, and got to visit with her for a bit. Some minutes later the vet came in, and explained that her kidneys were failing, and the only treatment available at the point of how damaged the kidneys were would only let her live a few more months and she would have to be heavily medicated 24/7. We took Charmin home to my brother’s, and I stayed there a second night.
I did not go to school Friday the 7th. We waited until my parents arrived back in the area, and my dad dropped off mom, and then we all went back to the vet’s with Charmin. We were escorted into a room with a door leading outside, and there were “Rainbow Bridge” poems and pictures here and there. We were then given time alone with her, for maybe half an hour. Then the vet and a helper came in, and gave her the fatal dose. As she slipped away, I hugged her softly and whispered in her ear, “I’ll always love you, beautiful girl.”
She was cremated, and her ashes now sit in an urn in my home. I still miss her a lot.
Six Southern Resident Orcas Gone
This past year, seven orcas from the Southern Resident orca community have disappeared. Two were senior females, two were reproductive females, two were newborn calves, and one was a juvenile male. The last orca mentioned will be spoken about in the next piece.
Rest in peace:
Lummi (K-7) – est. 1910-2008
Ankh (L-21) – est. 1950-2008
Blossom (J-11) – est. 1972-2008
Splash (L-67) – est. 1975-2008
Unnamed (L-111) – 2008
Unnamed (J-43) – 2008
Aurora
Born in 2002, L-101 (Aurora) was the second offspring of L-67 (Splash). Aurora’s older sibling, Luna, was born in 1999 and disappeared in 2001, later reappearing in that same year in Gold River, BC. He was alone. Over the course of five years people had tried to capture Luna to relocate him closer to his family so that he could be with his pod again, but the Mowachaht-Muchalaht’s thwarted every effort—claiming Luna was the reincarnation of their recently deceased chief. On March 10, 2006, Luna came too close to a 104-foot tugboat, and was killed by the propellers. This should not have happened. Anyway, that’s for another blog entry…
Aurora seemed to be quite the character, as there was one time where he appeared out of nowhere in front of a boat with a salmon in his mouth. There have been other funny incidents, but I do not remember them.
In 2004 I entered a naming contest for The Whale Museum, of which I had just become a member through the Orca Adoption Program—I opened it as a gift on Christmas of 2003. After learning of Luna’s story and seeing that there was a calf—L-101—that needed a name in that contest, I decided to submit a name: Aurora Borealis. Some months later, the name Aurora won by popular vote. I received a letter saying that even though the full name I submitted was Aurora Borealis, I still won along with the person who also submitted Aurora. And since I won, I got a free one-year adoption of Aurora. Every year since, at Christmas, my adoption of Aurora would be renewed.
I kept track of all the monthly updates through the e-mail system, reading for any news on Aurora. In this year’s e-mails, there was no mention of Aurora or his mom Splash. This worried me. And then I received a letter in September, saying that I can choose to adopt another orca in place of Aurora, or keep the adoption of him until a full year past after his last sighting (with which that would be the time he would be confirmed to be dead).
Well my mom, yesterday, said, “Oh, what the hell… Merry Christmas.” And dropped a large envelope in front of me. It was a renewal of Aurora’s adoption. And with it, was a large photo never before seen by any other person other than myself, the owner of The Whale Museum, and the photographer (I may be wrong, but this is how it is for now). I may put it online… but I haven’t decided yet.
Debby, the World’s Oldest Polar Bear
On Monday, November 17, Debby was euthanized after blood tests confirmed that her organs were failing. She was just some weeks short of turning 42 years old. On Saturday there was a ‘celebration of her life’. About two hundred people were there. We had to hold the ceremony outside because the restaurant was not big enough for that many people. One of our local celebrities was there, and he spoke to us a bit.
In her four decades of being at the zoo, Debby had attracted around eighteen million visitors. She had been the star attraction for many years, because of her age, the fact she was a polar bear, and her wonderful personality.
She has had six cubs in her younger years, all of whom are still alive today.
Rest well, Debby.
Nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love.
-Charlie Brown
In this entry I’m just compiling a bunch of quotes that represent my feelings.
God is closest to those with broken hearts. -Jewish saying
A great love? It’s when you shed tears for him but still you care for him. It’s when he ignored you but you still long for him. It’s when he starts loving another, and yet you manage a smile and find the courage to say “I’m happy for you.” -Unknown
The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe they always have been and will be. Maybe we’ve lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we’ve found each other. -Unknown
As soon as forever is through, I’ll be over you. -Toto
If we never felt sorrow, we’d never recognize bliss. At this rate I should be in a full state of bliss for the rest of my days. -Unknown
Looking back, I have this to regret, that too often when I loved, I did not say so. -David Grayson
For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these: ‘It might have been.’ -John Greenleaf Whittier
Back once more from the East coast
It was a fairly good trip—especially because my dad and I did not have to be in NYC for long (just an afternoon). And even then, it was just the Bronx.
Whale Watching in the Bay of Fundy
On the 17th my dad and I went on a whale watching boat. We saw at least a dozen whales, most of whom were humpbacks. About six of them came right up to the boat. We also saw two fin whales. That was a wonderful sight to see, even if they were hundreds of yards away.
A humpback mother and calf had come up close at one point, and the mother dove under the boat. Meanwhile, the calf spyhopped right beside the back of the boat! My dad got it recorded on the digital camcorder, so I shall see if I can show everyone how awesome it was.
Marineland Niagara Falls
On the evening of the 20th and in the morning and afternoon of the 21st, I spent at Marineland. The entire time I watched the orcas. Kiska seems depressed. On Thursday during one of the splash sessions, she just circled the pool, not bothering to listen to her trainers. I think she misses Nootka 5 quite a bit.
Ikaika seems to be doing quite well. He’s grown a lot since last year, and he eats at every chance he gets… and then he makes calls for his trainer when she goes to leave because he ate all the food. I would say his dorsal is going to be sprouting soon, even though he is not even in his teens yet. But maybe not… I honestly am not an expert on that.
Athena is bigger, but seems to be underweight and looks a little ill. When I watch her swim I can see her ribcage every once in a while. There’s also some weird white patches in her skin down her back near the fluke. Plus the black around there is lighter than it should be.
Hopefully Kiska and Athena both get better soon. I would really hate for them to die, because the employees who work with them are really involved in their job. (You would not believe how dedicated they are.)
First entry—“Humble beginning”
Well, dearest reader, I thank you for taking the time to take a look at my blog.
Best Friend’s Sweet 16
My friends and I celebrated a fellow friend’s sixteenth birthday on the sixth. Although her birthday is on the twenty-second, there was little choice for a date to celebrate; everyone was busy, and I was to leave for New York City early in the morning the next day.
We went to a rock climbing facility, and had some fun there. Half of the party-goers played poker while the rest climbed the walls—they either had no money, or had some issue that made them incapable of climbing (at least two friends have back issues).
I had managed to scale a few walls, but only with one had I managed to reach the top. I stood there while my friend (the birthday girl) took a picture of me.
We then ordered in pizza after all of us climbers became exhausted, and ate. A long while later the presents were opened one by one. I held my gift for last, because I knew it was a gift that she was not expecting. (Always save best for last!)
Finally she opened my birthday card, which mentioned something along the lines of “Your birthday is one of my favourite days of the year” and (next page) “Because you’re one of my favourite friends!”
Then, she opened the present… a book titled Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. I saw her face light up with a smile, and she hugged me.
After that we went to a movie theatre, to see Hancock. Unfortunately the next movie was in two hours, and overall it just would not work out. So we played games in the arcade area until everyone had to go. When it was my turn to leave, I gave her a big hug while she was setting up for another round of DDR, and wished her a happy birthday.
And it was only about a year ago when we became enemies due to misunderstandings and immaturity from both of us. We became friends again back at the end of March. I’m very happy that she and I are friends again.
Trip to New York City
The trip began innocently enough. My dad and I were to go on a long-haul trip in his semi to NYC. The trip over there was pretty good, aside from the fact that it was boiling hot outside. When we got to the city, I was stunned to see how bad the drivers were. After going to New York City, the drivers in my hometown are basically angels (that’s saying something, because the drivers around here are pretty bad).
First went to Staton Island, then to Long Island. Shot some golf balls at a driving range, before hitting the pillows the night my dad finished all the drops. Then it turned out we were to head to Georgia to pick up some John Deere tractors. Went through Massachusetts (… I think), Maryland, West Virginia, Virginia, North Carolina, and South Carolina. Finally got to our destination, and got the tractors loaded up the following morning. Then we headed home.
When we were in Kentucky, two things happened. I bought an orca puppet (insert fangirl squeal) and, there was a major storm system that was going past us. Three thunderstorms in a row, from the same system. I saw lightning strikes, and lots of heavy rain. There was also some crazy lightning that would light up the sky and make you think that you were gonna be hit, or something.
Then we finally got back home yesterday morning. My dog, Lucky, was ecstatic. It was quite clear that he missed me: he jumped all around me, his tail wagging in a blur, mouth open as if he were smiling and a glint in his eye that showed only happiness.
Two Errors, Just for A Meal
Tonight I was home alone, so I decided to have Subway for supper. I tried the online ordering… but I swear it was not working. The loading page loaded for minutes on end, and so I gave up. I waited for the supposed phone call. I waited for ten minutes after they were supposed to call (according to the order form), then I walked over to Subway. I ordered my meal, and the worker asked if I placed an online order. Taken aback, and afraid I would get in trouble, I said no.
Then came the paying part. I brought $12, because according to the online order (in the first place) the price would be $11.92 or something like that. She added it all up, which came to $12.31. Well, she took the $12 and said not to worry, that 31 cents isn’t a lot.
And now I’ve eaten most of my meal, wondering if Subway is going to scare the crap out of me by phoning at a time when I’m not the only one at home.
